I am always saddened to read stories like this. Being born with a chronic pain illness is one thing – acquiring it as an adult is another. However, the worst has to be getting injured while trying to do something good. I know that most of you have had the thought, “What the hell? I have been a good person, I have done good things, I have/am/done… Why am I being punished this way?!” It’s a common sentiment and there isn’t always an explanation. I wish everyone well, and please let me know in the comments your thoughts on acquiring chronic pain later in life.
Living with chronic pain: ‘I was determined to overcome the challenge life had set me’
A few minutes some 20 years ago changed my life for ever. Trying to prevent a robbery left me critically injured and fighting for life – a broken back, shattered ankles and head injuries led to many operations, nine months in hospital followed by 12 months in a rehabilitation centre as my battered body fought to recover.
It was tough with many ups and downs along with days of despair and frustration but I was determined to overcome the challenge life had set me. A constant companion was pain at a level I had never experienced before which left me physically and emotionally drained, often getting in the way of my recovery.
It made me irritable and at times difficult to get on with. I hate to imagine what people thought although I often wondered if they really understood my pain as they could not see it or feel it. Heavy doses of medication left me feeling out of control of my life along with physical discomfort which manifested in several ways. I had this nagging believe that one morning I would wake up and the pain would be gone.
After all the injuries I had suffered in the past, I wondered why the pain was not fading away this time. My family life suffered; the inability to play with my young daughter upset me and my partner asking why I got involved in the first place contributed to wearing me down.